2009Oct4 at 1048 (Community, Personal Life, Poetry, Statements, Thinkables)
Tags: decisions, find, foriegn places, home, knowledge, leave, lost, people, places, return, search
في الأماكن الغريبة، نبحث عن الأشياء التي في أوطاننا لم نجدها
ولكن، إذا نكف عن التفكير في الأشياء في الأماكن الغريبة
سنرى، الأشياء التي كانت ضائعة، إن شاء الله، في أوطاننا
وبعد ذلك، سنقرر أن نرجع، إن شاء الله، إلى أوطاننا
فلا نترك، الأماكن و الأشخاص الذين يعرفوننا دائما دائما
2009Apr18 at 0409 (Community, Heart Thoughts, Personal Life, Poetry, Theology?, Thinkables)
Tags: action, affirmation, arbitrary, balance, cognitive dissonance, culture, deception, deprivation, disillusions, find, florals, force, forgive, freedom, friendship, imagination, Jesus, morals, name, peace, pleasure, reality, reason, refuge, relate, relationship, rotten flesh, speak, sweet, systematic life, truth, where?, wisdom
Imaginary Jesus
Whose always there to please us
Confined to dissolve our cognitive dissonance
Our refuge relation
Our affirming sensation
Our utter deprivation
of self-expression
Spoken in His name.
Arbitrary morals
The culture’s deceptive florals
Smelling so sweet, but grown solely from rotting flesh
Our burdensome wisdom
Our incomplete system
Our forceful piston
Pushing us to fall in line
Acted out in His name.
Where is the balance
Of reason and freedom
Of real relations and forgiving friendships?
Why must the Word be fake
Or only seen from one man’s take?
Reality is found in humility of the mind
And forgiveness is found in humility of the kind.
But how does one find
the peace of mind
to ever be truly kind?
2009Mar22 at 0301 (Community, Gatherings, Personal Life, Poetry, Thinkables)
Tags: ambition, anger, arms, belief, belligerent, best, care, change, conclusion, confidence, darkness, death, expectations, force, forget, God, growth, heart, help, influence, jealousy, judgment, knowledge, language, leadership, love, meanings, peace, power, pretend, relate, seek, separation, should, silence, submission, talk, Teacher, terrified, The Cause, together, truth, understanding, walk, want, why?, words, world
I get angry when I’m not a part of making the conclusion,
When its given to me
Pasted on
And expected that I will comply
But why?
Do I know them?
Do I care?
I just look at them and stare
Good for you
What you say is true
But don’t flounder it like its your cause
Don’t force me join you
When you don’t know me
When you forget my name
When you…
Why am I so angry?
Why am I so belligerent?
They push beyond what’s given them
To a world beyond
To a world that doesn’t understand them
To a world that speaks another tongue
And I understand them
But I choose not to submit
Who am I to judge what God has given?
Who am I to draw the lines?
They pretend power
They just want to help.
Who am I to believe I know?
Who am I to judge?
So go along with the flow
It’s good, it’s good
You really, truly should
We all want the best
The best for all
So we spread our influence
Our knowledge of what is best for all.
None of us can lead.
Except to death and darkness below
Unless we walk together
Side by side
Each one’s influence ends at the reach of their arms
And only the truth can take it further (through the arms of another, and another, and another)
Live in peace
Destroy ambitions and jealousies,
Seek truth with those around you
Relate to truth through the voices of your neighbors and friends
Move slowly and only in confidence and peace
Understand the meanings of silence
The words of the heart–the words that our own attempt to relate–
I speak these to myself
I can’t press on anyone else
God teach us to walk, to talk and to love in both
I am so terrified of the world around me
How can they care when they do not know
The good hearts that believe they know
That seek to influence, to change, to grow
2009Feb24 at 0230 (Community, Conversations in my Head, Gatherings, Heart Thoughts, Personal Life, Poetry, Thinkables)
Tags: arms, battles, bind, blind, blood, called, ceiling, chaos, claim, clean, command, damp, darkness, desire, die, dirty, distinguish, domination, doom, dry, evil, face, feelings, fighting, flatter, flesh, floor, food, free, freedom, gavel, God, hands, hear, heart, hell, hold, honest, humiliation, ignorance, judgment, kitchen, lies, lives, Lord?, man, master, matter, name, one another, others, pan, passion, past, peace, pitiful, plea, please, pleasure, point, pot, pressure, pride, prize, race, reach, refuse, relate, relationship, rest, return, save, sea, shame, sight, sky, sounds, speak, sweat, terrified, thought, throat, truth, understanding, validate, wait, walls, waste, weight, what?, where?, why?, willingness, win, words, yell
Chaos swirling rapidly around
So many lives, so many sounds
The kitchen’s dirty, dark and damp
The master’s calling for food
But I can’t see.
I could.
I used to distinguish from pot and pan;
The dirty and clean;
The ceiling and floor.
But not any more.
Now I feel,
I feel for real.
I see there are so many lies.
Now I see,
I see the sea.
And my hands reach up for the skies.
Freedom, freedom calls my name
The truth will set you free.
Bind the evil,
Kick it out!
And then please hear my plea
And then please speak with me.
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Peace, peace, peace, be still
The words come from a dry, croaking throat
Evil has won
But your saving us, son
Live in hell so that we may die
In our pitiful, passionate pleasures
I’m fighting, yes! But what for?!
I’m living, yes! But what for?!
But what for?! But. What. For?!
And why?
…It doesn’t matter now, it seems
The passing has already come
I’m truly flattered now, it seems
…no!
I refuse.
I will not hold up your face any more
I will not validate your lies.
You are just a man like me…
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I have been humiliated
Entirely so
And yes, I feel it too,
The pressure to race, to win, to hold
From others as well as my own.
But when: to rest, to wait, to hold
One another instead of a prize,
In honest, willing thoughtfulness
Not dominant, prurient pride.
Where is the peace, my Lord?
Where is the desire to understand?
Where is the ignorance slight,
And thoughtfulness true?
Where are the battles finally won?
In your arms I’ll rest, my Lord
But to return to the darkness?
Truly Lord, what lies in the wastes?
The flesh and blood, claimed by One
Who dooms to ignorant fate.
And the hearts of some, claimed by One
Who choose to wait and relate.
Still, the darkness weighs heavily
The master’s voice yells again
But only so long as to give commands
And next the judge comes in.
The master points,
I feel ashamed
Then terrified as the gavel is raised
Over his head,
It weighs so much
He sweats but his eyes are blind
Then he lets it fall onto my chest
And my doomed life spatters
Over them and the walls
And finally, I am at rest.
2009Feb24 at 0239 (Community, Conversations in my Head, Personal Life, Thinkables)
Tags: belief, correct, natural, people, perceptions, sight, systematic education, training, world
I’ve seen that people believe that the so-called natural or correct way of perceiving the world is the way in which they themselves perceive it; especially the systematically educated, because they have spent the majority of their lives diligently training themselves and one another to perceive the world correctly….
2009Jan27 at 0113 (Community, Conversations in my Head, Gatherings, Thinkables)
Tags: ambition, fear, find, haven't a clue, paths, power, useful, why?, world
When someone makes their way up in the world, on any level, it will more than likely be found that it was because of one or more of the following: their fear made them useful, their ambition made them useful, or no one really understands why they are where they are.
2009Jan5 at 0108 (Community, Conversations in my Head, Theology?, Thinkables)
Tags: answers, confidence, contact, fear, humility, knowledge, peace, questions, receive, relationship, understanding
Fear comes from things that you don’t understand
Which, if responded to in humility, leads to questions
Which, if they are received, leads to answers
Which, if received and understood, lead to peace and confidence in knowledge and understanding
Which, if contact is continued, forms and binds a relationship.
2008Dec15 at 1227 (Community, Gatherings, Personal Life, Statements, Thinkables)
Tags: condition, deficit, have, life, love, processing, requirements, surplus
The First, What do you have?
The Second, What is required of you?
The Second and a half, How does the First compare to the Second?
The Third, What do you love?
